As thrilled and as proud as I am to be hearing back from Audiology Graduate Programs, another four years of classrooms and tests and professors and research just sounds so daunting. I know that in four years, when I finally enter the real world, all of the knowledge I’ve gained will have prepared me for the best job I can dream of. But right now I just really, really, really want to put all these practical business and marketing skills I’ve acquired from my completely unrelated undergraduate experiences to use and get a job. Any job.
While I’m incredibly blessed to be financially secure for the next four years, even able to pay for my program and maybe (just maybe) the kind of apartment my HGTV DIY dreams are made of, its just so much time. My brain is tired of the stress, and the textbooks, and the assignments, and my heart is ready to get out there and start serving.
The guilt I feel about often wishing I had taken an easier route and just gone for the Marketing or Public Relations Major (no offense, friends) that shoots you out into the job market after four years of learning how to tweet and market yourself and your organization in your blog. Again, no offense. The thing is that I already feel like I could do those PR jobs. I’ve spent the last 3 years working for Auburn’s programming board, primarily through the publicity committee, but most recently as the executive VP. Because of the hours of Photoshop and Illustrator and posters and koozies and debates over how to market events and attract students, it just seems to easy. In the end, that’s why (deep down) I’m longing for something more- to really change lives But on the other hand its incredibly appealing to have someone pay me for doing the things I’ve spent years of undergraduate free time focusing on.
Again, in the end I know I should be counting my blessings over and over again, and knocking on wood and avoiding cracks and broken mirrors. All of these skills will be just as useful in four years when my priority is marketing myself, creating my own business or marketing the practice that I become a part of. But right now, in the midst of interviews and decisions and big life changes, I can’t give up that little voice inside that just wants to move to my favorite country and market the hell out of some cool new product, or myself.
In the meantime, I’ll just be here reading The Happiness Project and trying to get the most out of my last three months of being a kid. Catch ya on the flip side
in four years, real world.